I am so sorry. I'm so glad that you and your family weren't hurt! There is just nothing I can say to try to ease your suffering. Just know that beating yourself up won't ease your mind and you don't need the added pressure on yourself or your family right now. You thought you were doing the right thing, and in the end that's what we all want to do. If your experience helps save one more person from your anguish, then your bravery and honesty is to be commended.