Not happy right now...in fact Im
on the inside right now. Cant let it out because of the other kids...dont want them to see mommy this upset.
Hubby decided to go to LAs Vegas. I dont know exactly when he made his decision, but he didnt bother to let me know until about 2 hours ago. He just walked out the door a minute ago. So now, he's going to be gone from today till Thursday night. Oh, AND he's planning ANOTHER trip to Palm Springs the following week for one day, but overnight, so really 2 days.
When I reminded him my last Dr. appt was on thursday (last before my actual due date) and that he hasnt been to one appt with me and that I have no one to watch the kids since this is an internal exam appt, he just told me to re-schedule since that way I will be further along and they can sweep my membranes then. Could he BE anymore insensitive????
I am hurting so bad right now I cant even explain it. I feel abandoned and unloved and unprotected. Im just trying not to go into the whole story just to spare you all the dumb drama. I SERIOUSLY dont know HOW Im going to do this, energy wise.
When I told him I need more help everyday and that I need to prepare for the birth physically, mentally, and emotionally, his response was to "Suck it up, OTHER women handle kids and full time work tight up till the day they give birth, why cant you? Youre lucky youre not living in the pioneer times and having to give birth. You need to toughen up." WHO the HECK ARE THESE OTHER WOMEN??? Id love to meet them and swap stories.
Yes ladies- thats what he told me when I tried to explain to him how much I need him here. My stress and anxiety are through the roof right now. I have 3 kids to take and pick up from school and I DONT fit behind the steering wheel! My toes barely reach the pedals! I do have some help, but not for every ride for every kid. Plus the time of day they need rides means NO nap for my kids or me, and since he's not gonna be here, I have NO relief in the evening either.
Ok, now that Ive vented a bit, I need to try to be positive. I guess there are women who have it tougher. I am grateful my husband is not overseas as a serviceman, nor is he disabled and he is alive and well. At least he is providing for his family.
Well, my son just called, he needs a ride home from football practice, so I gotta load up all the kids and go get him.....