I understand how you feel, my dad died in the local large hospital ICU the surgon murdered him, my brothers fought me on an autopsy, mom was out of it, they denied me having any say in the funeral, and my mom's brothers and sisters made sure I couuld not be a pal bearor II figured out why, I'm a bastard child, tho I think I am a child of incest, likely my mom's child with her dad. Named aftrer him and mom's sisters do not wan me to use the lastname of the man who raised me even tho his name is on birth certificate, and insist I use grandpa's first name even tho he made it plain he hated me and that I was named after him because "it's disrespectful not to use is first name and illegal to use thhe middle n ame on your birth cirtificate."
