My folks went vegan (without the emphasis on using animals for clothing, however) about 15 years ago for their health and that has worked out wonderfully. It also worked out great for us as well, as we have kind of caught a little of that lifestyle, as a side effect. We rarely eat meat, except deer meat we have harvested ourselves, or "extra" chickens such as extra roosters, hens that aren't laying, etc. We don't do dairy or just about any store-bought animal byproducts. We do eat our eggs, plan to get bees for the honey, and will continue to raise chickens for profit, for the manure and for the extra food source, if needed. The real kicker to being able to process your own meat is the fact that you will know how when the need arises. The world's food supply is getting worse and worse. I want to be prepared.
Joel Salatin is a pioneer and somewhat of a genius in my thinking! I actually got to hear him give a lecture and he is fascinating.
I don't feel it is "sick" to want to observe how others manage their meat birds. I feel like it is always smart to glean information that may someday become useful to you or to others. Keep learning!!!