Thanks to all the wonderful people on here ( ) i have noticed that i'm my own person and that i'll be happiest chasing after what i want to do. already, i have talked to my parents about being a vet intern and i have talked to them about volunteering at a local (VERY local...three minutes away tops) horse rescue. i'm thrilled! i think i'm going there this weekend! also, i have decided to stop trying to act like my sister and have already found myself being nicer in general and saying things i normally wouldn't say because i would be too afraid. despite the fact i was trying to be outragiously nice like my sister, it only seemed to make me more sarcastic and "mean." i guess my wall is finally falling down because i am finally becoming confident with myself. i'm so happy now. i'm me, and theres nothing anyone can do about it. thank you everyone for your kind words and advice when i was feeling very low and down. love you all!