I do have anxiety outside of this. And thankfully visit a therapist as well. I thought it was silly to bring this up with my therapist, but since it's affecting me so heavily I guess I should. Hopefully within this month we can build the secure run. We've got our hands full building a tiny house at the moment. But that run is first in line afterward!While it is perfectly ok to be sad at the loss of a pet for a while, and to want to do things to prevent any further losses, that level of anxiety (months later, feeling antsy and HAVING to check on them/spend a certain amount of time with them) does not sound exactly “normal”. Do you find you have anxiety issues in other areas of your life as well? Have you talked to your health care provider about this issue?
I also agree that providing a secure run for them and only letting them out to roam when it suits YOU may alleviate some of your anxiety.