That makes a lot of sense!! I think I’ve gotten that way somewhat but still not fully. I’m still too much of a softie.I am not too sad over it, I know I should be but I do not have time to be sad. I have to fix the situation. I'm a doer not a thinker, I believe that is why I have found such a passion for chickens, quail, and plants... You cull the weak so that future generations are stronger. Maybe I am just heartless or I have put up a wall to prevent myself the pain. I believe when I interned at the vet office, my heart learned when to feel pain and when not to... You cant sob over the clients dog because you have to save its life.
I mean I eventually did cry over both I think but it took a while. Idk, maybe I’m just numb or something now Granted all of these deaths were a relief from suffering (grandma had colon cancer, Gator had MMM, the chickens, of course, Mareks) so maybe because I watched the suffering first hand and knew it was a relief/end to it that’s why. Idk.
Sorry, idk why I went there.

This is what I would do:

