That makes a lot of sense!! I think I’ve gotten that way somewhat but still not fully. I’m still too much of a softie.I am not too sad over it, I know I should be but I do not have time to be sad. I have to fix the situation. I'm a doer not a thinker, I believe that is why I have found such a passion for chickens, quail, and plants... You cull the weak so that future generations are stronger. Maybe I am just heartless or I have put up a wall to prevent myself the pain. I believe when I interned at the vet office, my heart learned when to feel pain and when not to... You cant sob over the clients dog because you have to save its life.






Granted all of these deaths were a relief from suffering (grandma had colon cancer, Gator had MMM, the chickens, of course, Mareks) so maybe because I watched the suffering first hand and knew it was a relief/end to it that’s why. Idk.
Sorry, idk why I went there.
