When I would see people with difficulty breathing or children with upper respiratory infections whose parents or they themselves reeked of cigarette smoke in the ER and they would say "I'm sorry I know I should quit smoking", I would always say to them, "Don't apologize to me, I encourage smoking, I consider it job security, as long as you keep smoking, I'll keep seeing you and your children in here."
I'm glad you are quitting, Deb, for your own sake and more importantly for those young babies in your life. Most people think because they don't smoke around those babies that they aren't affected. THEY FOR SURE ARE AFFECTED. The smoke is in your hair and on your clothes, contained in your drapes and furniture in your house, and in the food you cook. I know you think that I am exagerating here, but I am not. They breathe it every time you pick them up, lay them on your couch or feed them your home baked cookies.
I know quitting is hard, but the results are so worth it.