I totally understand. Whenever I have to rehome drakes and cannot find homes for them we have a friend that puts them in freezer camp to feed his family. I have to have my husband him him catch them while I am gone and they have to be out of here before I return home. I can't do it myself and it upsets me terribly knowing that is what is going to happen. It is a last resort but I have to convince myself that this person is feeding his family and how much they appreciate the food. It's not easy by no means.Thank you, I really do. I just feel so bad giving him away. It already hurt when I gave away his brother. But even if I do keep him, and I do move forward with the breeding plan I mentioned, it'll affect my neighbors. Having one or two HUGE males crowing will not be pleasant in the slightest for them. Whereas a bantam male (say sebright for example) whose voice is obviously much quieter than an aseel male will be less to bear for my neighbors, and I'd like to keep things civil with them. I guess I've already made up my mind, I just don't have the heart to do it