OMG I killed her Omg omg *update on the extent of Munchies wound

[kvmommy]

So yesterday I was doing ok but then by evening I had another melt down...I just couldn't shake the guilt. Then when DH got home from work he went to bury Munchies, because I couldn't look at her without freaking out. Butters, her heterosexual lifemate (and only other friend) followed them and kept calling her call that she does when Munchies and her seperate. And now she won't lay like she did when our roo died. when Munchies was attacked I couldn't find any wounds and there was only a little blood. I tried to lift her wings but she freaked out and I didn't see anything. She was holding her wings fine, the next day she started to droop her wing. she wouldn't let me check it out so the day after is when I got the Pen-G. I knew she was hurt and had some open wound someplace so I figured I'd get the the antibiotics just in case because her wing was drooping even more. Well after she died I couldn't bear to look at her. DH checked her out before he buried her and said there was a hole under her wing the size of a quarter with no flesh, no blood, just dry bare exposed bones. I couldn't believe her injury was that bad! It makes me more sad that I didn't realize it but I do feel a little better because an injury like that must hurt so bad and waiting two days I'm sure an infection set in so horribly. And her death was immediate so she truly didn't suffer. So I do feel a tiny bit better.

But Butters is sooo lonely and it breaks my heart. She is trying to hang out with my flock of almost 3 months old chicks, but she has been so mean to them and has harassed them for so long that they just run from her. Munchies used to be so nice to them, she'd protect them from Butters and butters would get mad and leave by herself. Then she'd panic and start calling frantically for Munchies, and Munchies would always come. She is forever the pacifist and just sweet. Poor Butters. She is lost without her best bud. I hope the chicks will let butters join their little flock.

 

[TheJadeChicken]

Oh! How sad. Did you DH show her the body of Munchies? That usually helps them with the lose of a loved one.

 

[ChicknThief]

I am glad you are beginning to forgive youself. Even the poultry veterans who have been doing this since the prehistoric times (or just about) occasionally make mistakes. And like others have said, there is no evidence that your Munchies died as a result of your shot.

 

[Jazzchick]

Awwww that is so sad.... but like everyone has mentioned.... she was probably dying anyway... just be thankful she waited to be in your arms.....

xxoo P