Vfem, I slept so much during the first two weeks, honestly, I needed to not just because i was tired, but because the idea of NOT smoking was depressing. Yes I wanted to quit, but it's like a divorce, a mutual one but one where you were still "in love" but it just couldn't work anymore. I was depressed and sad to say goodbye.. and for the first 4 weeks, I did miss them from time to time. But starting week 3 I didn't need to sleep as much and I wasn't as depressed but I still couldn't "FOCUS" with the same gusto that I used to, even though THE WHOLE TIME I was on the nicotine replacement therapy (NRT), it was still a struggle to rework my life, go to the grocery store, care about what was for dinner for example or even feed/water my chickens.
Week 4 was amazing... almost as if I was never a smoker, and I often was forgetting my NRT, my attitude perked up, focusing was possible again, still not the same as before but what I've learned is that before wasn't healthy anyway so I'm not going back to that! So comparing how I was before to the future was pointless in itself! I'm a new me! In my case, that means a me that doesn't sit behind a computer working for 10 hours without a break or food.
Weeks 5 and 6 where I am now, I must admit. My schedule is ALL OVER THE PLACE! But it's ok. I'm doing what I feel like doing, when I feel like doing it. Sleep, work, garden. The words ENJOY and FUN are back in my life and what was sad and depressing is no longer. I'm pretty sure even the sun is a little brighter, the grass a little greener.
Most importantly... I won. I WON! I CAN live without them... even though it was sad, it's just like mourning the loss of any relationship. I lost my best friend, the only companion that wouldn't question me BUT I gained my life and my freedom back. Like an abusive relationship.. I may be addicted but i can walk away and live an abuse free life.
I swear it helps for me to think of it as a relationship, as if smokes are a person, one that is toxic to my life and i'm better off living without, even though I loved them so much! Now.. maybe I'm loving me more.
GOOD LUCK!
also wanted to say.. in my case, there was a lot of my life I was ignoring, not paying attention to, things, problems just ignored and smoked away instead... cleaning up that stuff is the new mission... once you get started, it's really quite easy!