My father killed himself.
It was probably the most difficult thing I've been through.
The pain and confusion that that leaves behind is unspeakable.

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My father killed himself.
It was probably the most difficult thing I've been through.
The pain and confusion that that leaves behind is unspeakable.
Oh heavens, leave a lighton! I'm so sorry. Tell that dear lady if having a bad memory is a reason to end one's life, we would all be dead! I know how upsetting this is for you to hear from your mom, especially when they have been sharp as a tack their whole lives and suddenly realize that their memories are slipping a bit. It's hard enough on me when I realize I've walked into the kitchen, opened the refrigerator door and suddenly realize what I want is in the cupboard. I mean, DUH! Just reassure her that she is normal, as frequently as necessary. Give her a notebook and have her jot things down. Photo albums are marvelous memory stimulation for the elderly. I've had so many people, in and out of nursing homes tell me that their moms or dads have Alzheimers and they are so afraid that they have it. I always responded by asking them if they loose their car keys. Everybody has, right? Then I ask them when they find their car keys do they remember what they are for? They laughed and always said, 'Yes, of course! To make my car run' I just hugged everyone at that point and said, congratulations, you do not have Alzheimer's disease.
Superchemicalgirl. My deepest condolences. Suicide is horrible. It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem and while the person who ends their lives are out of their pain, the family they leave behind suffers for the rest of their lives. No words can make it hurt less. No hugs can take away the painful realization that the loved one is gone forever. I am a true believer that suicide is a symptom of a hidden illness that the sufferer has buried deep inside of themselves. So many times there are no warnings. It just happens. My heart aches for your family and the pain you have felt. Like I said, there are no words of comfort I can say.![]()
My bright spot of the day. DH went to our Amish neighbor's house to buy dog food (he has a feed business on the side) and came home with a dozen bantam mix hatching eggs for me. The Brinsea is cranking up even as I type.