Well...excuse me a minute:
It doesnt appear to get easier, it seems to get harder.
I havent had a cigarette in three days. *counting* yep, three days. I had ONE on Sunday. So...doing the math...I would have normally had over one hundred cigarettes by now.
I have survived work stress, husband stress
, kid stress...and staring at my cigarette sitting there in my ashtray of my van...but I havent given in. I gave away the unopened pack that was in there, also. It was subliminally calling my name...so it's gone.
Seriously, if I hadnt been scared to death by my own xrays of my lungs, I would probably have lit up again. But when i return on February 13th to the doctor to see what the specialist had to say about my lungs, I want to be able to say: "I haven't smoked since".
I ordered an air purifier yesterday. Hopefully that will also help me be able to breathe again. I really do not want to rehome my cockatoo- or my cats- or my dogs....I wouldnt be able to, I would just suffer. I ordered The Austin Air Healthmate Plus with medical grade true Hepa filter. It was very expensive and I hope it is worth it.
I gave up the mints. My tongue feels raw. I think I overdosed on Mints to replace the cigarettes. Yesterday I bought baby carrots, strawberries, mandarin orange slices, and grapefruit chunks...
I absolutely REFUSE to gain weight while not smoking. It is NOT an option.
So, I am just checking in with an update and to let you all know- Im still not smoking. Im hanging in there...but it is very hard.
It doesnt appear to get easier, it seems to get harder.
I havent had a cigarette in three days. *counting* yep, three days. I had ONE on Sunday. So...doing the math...I would have normally had over one hundred cigarettes by now.
I have survived work stress, husband stress
Seriously, if I hadnt been scared to death by my own xrays of my lungs, I would probably have lit up again. But when i return on February 13th to the doctor to see what the specialist had to say about my lungs, I want to be able to say: "I haven't smoked since".
I ordered an air purifier yesterday. Hopefully that will also help me be able to breathe again. I really do not want to rehome my cockatoo- or my cats- or my dogs....I wouldnt be able to, I would just suffer. I ordered The Austin Air Healthmate Plus with medical grade true Hepa filter. It was very expensive and I hope it is worth it.
I gave up the mints. My tongue feels raw. I think I overdosed on Mints to replace the cigarettes. Yesterday I bought baby carrots, strawberries, mandarin orange slices, and grapefruit chunks...
I absolutely REFUSE to gain weight while not smoking. It is NOT an option.
So, I am just checking in with an update and to let you all know- Im still not smoking. Im hanging in there...but it is very hard.