You need to start making decisions and choices that are not within
your experience to change. There are familys that never drink, take
drugs, and have so much death and destruction going on. What has
happened IS a nightmare, but use this as an opportunity to change.
Don't saddle yourself with dependents, boyfriends or pets until you
have stablilized yourself. It takes a while to get used to living differently
but you will never look back with regrets if you keep your expectations
high. Most of us would be afraid to move on alone, but once you do and
live on your own for awhile you realize it is kind of nice being able to decide
how your money is spent, and getting to make every single decision about
how the household runs. First get a job and make it your top priority and
commit to it. Let your job define you for a while not your life.
