I’m emotionally attached to him and believe that when you own an animal it’s for life. Oh and I’m vegetarian
I was very emotionally attached to my first ever attacker.. and he was "rare breed" and my very favorite bird before the attacks started.. that worked VERY hard to get and intended as the main stag in my breeding program. I'm not vegetarian yet, despite being borderline.. but I'm not joking when I tell you the meaner the roo the sweeter the stew.
My biggest regret... is not dispatching him sooner (or letting someone else, I too am NOT above feeding them out to other animals... the barn cats do ALL the work when needed after I humanely and quickly do the deed)... I took it for so long it almost turned me against roosters forever. It took several months before I could appreciate the beautiful crow of another boy. And YES, I too tried ALL the techniques people claim work for them... EACH rooster is an individual... Ugh, my son cleans stalls and has a Silkie rooster that comes across the property to attack him EVERY time despite being punted quite hard.

That Stupid Silkie rooster even attacks my friend and her husband refuses to take any action. There is NO changing SOME boys.. and this sounds like it's been going on way to long to expect a change now.
Dominance and "trust" is not the key in my experience.. De-escalation, body language, and respect very much are. So sorry you face this.. I HAVE been there before.
Now... many roosters later... some were very fantastic and I have mourned their loss! None have attacked the way my first (lap rooster mistake) did.
So glad I started over... and ended up with balanced, amazing flock members... that bring JOY into my life instead of daily pain and frustration.
NO, I wasn't scared either.. some boys don't care.. they are hormonal driven idiots doing what comes natural and they are stuck on that one track in their tiny brain... only way to change it is give him a perspective change.. redirect his focus OFF you. Give him a better target, maybe??
Sorry you face this!
Please note, this is posting while I'm still reading the thread. Please dismiss repeat suggestions or anything that simply isn't applicable to you.
Best wishes for a balanced rooster and positive outcome!
