I feel pretty great today. I’m actually trying to stay off BYC for a few days because it’s sort of a smoking trigger for me.
@Kiki you’re doing incredibly and serving as an inspiration for me. I got super scared (I don’t know what the right word is really for what I was feeling) yesterday about becoming a non smoker. (Change makes me super uncomfortable...) so in sabotaged myself and had a half of a cigarette before I went to bed.
WHAT? I made it all that time, 30+ hours, and then I did that? When I could have just gone to bed. Ugh. I am 100% capable of beating down the cravings within me. It’s this mental game that’s rough.
what I’m NOT doing is letting myself self-sabotage. Just because I did that, doesn’t mean ANYTHING about today or my future. I’m thinking this is me embracing “cannot” vs “can not”. Cannot is overwhelming, and like a funeral I don’t want to go to. Can not is a new beginning.