Thank you for the encouragement, you are a sweet lady. But my demons are way bigger than my smoking one, sweet girl. I'm addicted to opioids and Adderall. All prescribed by my doctor. I'm also an alcoholic. I have manic depressive bipolar and the drugs that go with that. THERE, I'VE SAID IT ALL‼
I'M ASHAMED OF IT. BUT IT WAS NOT INTENTIONAL AT ALL.
I have been in some major pain for the last ten years. I was diagnosed with bipolar 20 years ago. I take full responsibility for the drinking. So, you see, I'm kind of a mess right now. I have no drugs now. Nothing to drink. I live out in the country and I don't drive. This is what I want. Quit it all cold turkey. That's the only way I can do it. I told my husband to leave. He did. So, that's what's going on with me!
It's really important to have someone you can rely on in this type of situation, and for you not to be alone most of the time. Not trying to be a know it all, just an RN who is concerned.
The night sweats were keeping me awake, making me cranky as all hell, etc etc. My mother had breast cancer, so I do not want to go on hormones. I tried all the “herbal” type stuff and nothing really helped, so my doc told me she had had patients have some success with anti-anxiety meds. Since my moods were a mess too, I decided to try it. Almost a year later, it’s taken me 4 weeks of lessening dosage to wean off that stuff. Tuesday was my last low-dose pill. Now I tingle all over. But I’m getting it out of my system. I’ll deal with the other stuff, I can handle hot flashes, etc. Hopefully my hubby can handle the mood swings! Lol But I’m committed to being free of it all.
