Hi there John, I just finished reading this full thread! My depression got worse once I started living a sedentary 24/7 indoors life... so... hopefully I can fix that! I should be getting them sometime this month, hopefully...
Hope things keep working out for you!
Well done for reading this thread, I am sure that took some doing, with me babbling on like I do. Depression is a terrible thing, and I really feel for anyone with it.
The ups and downs are no fun at all. Just last night my partner and I decided to sell the house and go our seperate ways. We are still here in the house at the moment, and we are not sure how we can do this splitting up thing. Neither of us want it, but we cant live like we do either.
We have been together 7 years, and for the last 4 years, we are together 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, year in year out, and this in itself has taken its toll. My wife feels that if you want to have time on your own, you shouldnt be together, but I dont agree. I think you need time apart to fully appreciate your time together. Added to this is the fact that I have 2 teenage daughters to a previous partner, and I hardly ever see them.
My partner wont have them staying over, even though she gets on with them, and I am unable to see them on my own, as my wife doesnt want me to. The same with my family. I have only seen my mum once on my own in 7 years, and I havent seen any of my sisters on their own at all in that time.
I told my wife last night that we need to sell the houses because I need some time to myself, even just one day every couple of weeks to see my daughters and family, and it looks like this is how its going to go.
Now, after a huge argument about all this last night, my wife tells me that she has never stopped me from doing anything I want, or from seeing my family. She says it is all in my head that she doesnt like it, and thats why I have done it. She says that this is all part of your depressive state of mind. And I am sat here now typing this, and thinking that maybe she is right. And then I think no. Depression is a terrible thing, and I wish you all the best.