Hang in there, though it seems hard to believe at times, it will get better...it has to. I lost my dream career to my disability,(head injury from a truck accident caused seizure disorder and then mild brain damage), and I have also had to deal with some kind of weird neurological condition that is causing problems with my spine and joints, and crushing cluster migraines, so I went from being the chief bread winner to being furniture, and our socio-economic status went from upwardly mobile middle class, to hanging by our fingernails, poor, white , trash. Its constant stress and strife, but you cannot let it eat you.
I just got my dogs neutered to stop them from fighting, and low and behold, my big boy got an infection and I had to drop another $150 on another vet visit and meds, and the scholarship money that was supposed to be here this week,(according to my lying enrollment advisor at Grand Canyon University), in all actuality wont be here until sometime next month, and it is too late to withdraw and return to NAU for this semester. My truck just got a brake job because I was running metal to metal, and now it needs a water pump, and to top it off, when the mechanic at Meineke drained my A/C system, he screwed up and supposedly did not realize that he didnt have the proper fittings or certification to refill it, so now I have no A/C in my truck. No dryer in my house, my washer and microwave are both dying noisy deaths, and none of my fat, healthy, chickens are laying. But, my kids are healthy and its the monsoon so I have to count my blessings.
Try to take a deep breath and think of all of the ways you are blessed, and then breathe real deep and just think that they cant kill you for owing them money, and you are not facing fire, flood or famine. This helps me to get up and move every single day. :aww