Diary of a FAT cow!

[oesdog]

Thank you for your advice.
Firstly the water. We do drink lots of regular water. I have already posted that I do not add this into my diet because we drink it so much during the day so I only log things with cal content.
The excersize is growing steadily. We cannot do too much as my DH is only days after a second heart operation and I have fibromyalga which is a soft tissue arthritis. We are biulding the excersize over time. The fruit is something we eat instead of desserts and for breakfast and we usually try to stick to the advised 5 a day. We would have normally eaten a lot of cakes and breads as DH bakes but that has been cut out completely. I am truely trying hard to get rid of the coffee, I was drinking over 10 -20 cups a day then cut it to 5 and now I try to get it down to 4 or below. We have started to introduce things like water biscuits and low fat cheese spread or soups instead of fruit for lunch. As for Protien we do eat Fish and meat. We do so every day. For example this week Saterday was Salmon, Sunday roast beef , Monday Salmon, Tuesday Ham, Wednesday Cheese and bacon.

Thanks again for your advice and I hope this has helped to explain a little of where we are at.
Oh forgot to say the fruit flavoured crap is regular water with a squeeze of orange juice or lime or lemon in it now! lol

Oes

 

[SillyChicken]

Awesome!

Sometimes its hard to tell, but it sounds like you're doing great.. I know fibro is a bear to deal with so that makes what you're doing even tougher.

 

[oesdog]

Thanks for that - I kind of feel like I need a bit of support. I am sooooo struggling somtimes.
I still feel very very FAT!!!!!!!!! Mooo

I will take on board what you have said.

Oes

 

[oesdog]

DAY SEVENTEEN
23rd August


Last night 10.6
this morning back to 10.5 UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Breakfast
(1) Coffee white no sugar.
Yogurt and mixed friut. .

Excersize
10 mins x trainor / 10 mins trampett

Morning snack
(2) Coffee white no sugar

Lunch
Diet low cal chicken soup. (42 cals)

Afternoon snack
(3) Coffee white no sugar/ fruit waffer.

Dinner
cod fillet and mixed poached veg.
Peach
Fruit flavoured water.

Evening
I should be motivated into doing something but my body doesn;t want to follow where my brain goes!

How do I feel
I am quite upset about the set back. I felt I could just have sat and eaten my way through party cakes!!!! All the effort to avoid fat filled calorie laiden foods and I am back to the weight I was on day 12!!!!! It has put me back a good 6 days. I am now struggling to get my head round keeping on going and being even more hard on myself.

 

[oesdog]

DAY EIGHTEEN
24th August



Last night 10.5
This morning 10.4 - yupeeee !!!!!! At least I am back to what I was before the invation of unwanted fat melt!



Breakfast
(1) Coffee white no sugar.
Yogurt and mixed friut. .

Excersize
none as I have to clean house.

Morning snack
(2) Coffee white no sugar
Fruit waffer

Lunch
(3) 2 water biscuits with low fat cheese spread and smoked salmon slices on top.

Afternoon snack
Fruit flavoured water

Dinner
2x stuffed mushrooms with cuscus, tomato and low fat cheese with a side salad.
Glass of wine (its Friday!)

Evening
(4) Coffee white no sugar.

How do I feel
Had a visit from DD today. She said she had been round at my sister-in-laws. Apparently my SIL told her my diet was too extreme and I was apparently faiding away to nothing and I should stop at once! ( Ta for the support!) DD came in and inspected me for herself and then anounced - "oh she is talking rubbish you have hardly lost a thing your still FAT! you need ot lose another stone at least!" OMG nothing like the support of the family. One thinks I have lost too much ( she is much bigger than me!) The other thinks I have a long way to go and have hardly lost anything? ( She is also very much larger than I am!!!!! ) DH thought they were both very rood and jealious, however DD thinks he has lost a massive amount of weight and she is "so proud of him" ( eye lashes batting at this stage and I am just waiting for her to ask her daddy for something!) Agh!!!!!!!

Makes me feel like a big old Pie! I am totally depressed. This is Friday and usually we have a nice dinner and some wine but I am fat and I need to suck it in (literally!) and lose some weight. My family are so mean!

Apparently my loving DD told her aunt not to worry about me faiding away because I always put the weight back on again anyway!!!!!!!!

 

[bluesub]

Oesdog,

Hang in there!!! Sorry about your family. Keep on exercising, it will make you feel better about yourself. Will the fibromyalgia get better (even a little?) as you lose weight (is it like arthritis in that the less weight you have on your body, the less stress there is on your bones and tissue)? Remember that this weight loss is about yourself NOT your family.

 

[oesdog]

DAY NINETEEN
25th August


Last night 10.5
This morning 10.4 So I am keeping that old lb off!!!!!!!!!!!

Breakfast
(1) Coffee white no sugar.
Scrambled egg with salmon on top.

Excersize
10 mins X trainor
10 mins Tredmill.
No time for more as had to go out.

Morning snack
(2) Coffee white no sugar

Lunch
(3) Coffee white no sugar./ginger biscuit ( on the run in the shopping centre, with Dan in tow it wasn't easy to stop and eat!)

Afternoon snack
Small Fanta Orange low cal (46)

Dinner
x2 wholemeal chicken wraps with plenty of salad involved! Not like the other unmentionable ones!
(4) Coffee white no sugar.

Evening
15 mins tredmill.

How do I feel
I feel elated because I put myself on the scale when I got back from the stores and I was 10.4lbs and that was near 6 pm tonight!!!!!!! I have eaten Dinner since then so maybe it will go up again? But it was great to see that old 10.4 at that time of day. The good thing about this number is that I feel under the 10.5 I am on the home stretch. I now have just 5lbs to lose to get into the 9 somethings. I sure would love to see a 9.9 before I go away because then I would be into single figures and how cool would that be? That is 9 lbs away though so I am thinking that will be hard when my weight loss has slowed down so much. Still it is a good dream!

Oes

 

[oesdog]

Oesdog,

Hang in there!!! Sorry about your family. Keep on exercising, it will make you feel better about yourself. Will the fibromyalgia get better (even a little?) as you lose weight (is it like arthritis in that the less weight you have on your body, the less stress there is on your bones and tissue)? Remember that this weight loss is about yourself NOT your family.

Thanks for the support I was feeling very low. I think it was the lowest I have felt in this few weeks. It is such an effort to get the weight off and folk can be so mean. DH is probably right in that the folk who try to scupper all my efforts and tell me I am doing this or that wrong - are usually folk who are way bigger and fatter than I am! Today I was told not to weigh myself everyday. Well I do because I stopped weighing myself before and put it off. Thing is by the time you get back on the scale it is far too late and your half a stone hevier. I am glad I weigh everyday because that means I am never going to kid myself again. I am doing ok and I will be sooo pleased to see the back of the 10 somethings - please god let me see that darn elusive 9 stone something anything will do!!!!

Yes it is for me and DH. not for anyone else! Our health is what its all about. My fibro is indeed better with less weight and DH tells me he feels better in himself and is never going back to eating for the sack of it. After two loads of heart surgery and a heart attack I am glad he is more food aware. So the family can just go take their jealousy and run. It isn;t worth me getting all upset over. After all they wont be on the beach in the sun in Spain ( maybe for 6 months of the year if we buy out there!!!) It's about time we have some time and be fit and healthy enough to enjoy it with eachother away from "family".

Oes

 

[oesdog]

DAY TWENTY
26th August


Last night 10.5lbs
This morning 10.4 lbs
I am sooo wanting to see a 10.3




Breakfast
(1) Coffee white no sugar.
2 spoonsfulls of yogurt with a dash of honey.

Excersize
none as my body doesn;t want to go where my head tells it to!!!!!!

Morning snack
(2) Coffee white no sugar

Lunch
(3) Coffee white no sugar.
2 water biscuits with low fat cheese spread and tuna.

Afternoon snack
(4) Coffee white no sugar.
Fruit waffer

Dinner
It is Sunday which is usually a diet killer for me.
Roast Chicken ( with skin and fat removed) with brocolli and carrotts.
Apple and blackberry pie (sweetened with honey and made from Filo pastry as its low in fat.)
Fruit flavoured water.
Evening
(5) Coffee no sugar.

Excersize
10 mins tredmill.

How do I feel
I was feeling quite good about myself getting back down to the 10.4 and I have felt fitter since all the excersize. I was thinking I was starting to "get a shape back"! However my loving family struck again today.
As I was trying to do my anti cellulite thing ( oh yes I got one of those anti cellulite brushes so I was doing all that in my undies and moisturising my thunder thighs) When DH comes in and starts fiddling about. Later I discovered he was messing about with the vidio cam we are taking on holiday and there in the screen on his computor is my bulky massive big cow frame!
He had vidioed ME to practice getting the cam to work right and download - How bad is that!!!!!!!

Honestly I could have died off when I saw the big frame that filled the screen. My cellulite is definately cellu - Heavy!!!!!!!

Those thoughts of - "oh I look like I am beggining to see a woman shape - went straight out the window and I realize I am only kidding myself! There on the screen in truth was the biggest heffers backside! I am not entirely convinced my little cellulite brush is going to fix that?

So once again I find myself thanking my loving thoughtful family for their support and encouragement! NOT!!!!!!! Totally depressed get out the bacon slicer and just hack it all off and put me out of my misery and shame!!!!! I guess I should be glad he didn't put it on the net!

Oes - Moooooooooooooooooooooo!!!! OMG I must have been enormous a few weeks ago!!!!!!!! I have so far to gooooo

I am FAT and HUNGRY!!!!!!!

 

[Mattemma]

I watched that HBO weight loss show,and it is very common for family and friends to be negative about a persons weight loss.They might go about it in the concerned way(fading away to nothing,poor nutrition,you lost and gained it back so why try) to guilt you back to old ways.Just keep positive and respond in a positive manner to concerns.

A walk is an excellent way to burn your calories and far more pleasant than a treadmill(or dreadmill as some call it).I often walk around my yard.Must be quite a sight for my neighbors as I often have a line of 7 chickens trailing me as if I was the pied piper.

Wishing you and your dh good health.