Diary of an x fat cow part 2 - Diary of a chubby chicken!!!!!

[oesdog]

Thanks for the post.

I do feel really down and frustrated with my weight and this time it isn;t going as well as I wanted it too. It was a real sucsses last time but this time the weight just wont come off and I know it is because I am still eating the wrong things and not excersizing. I am more than worried now that if I get sick again I wont be able to walk the puppy. I know the breed likes walks and I know they are ok with a day or two laying about the house because they also like being lazy. But a pup needs regular walks and lots of runs. I am scared but at the same time I don;t want to not get him because I know it is the last opportunity I will have to have another OES. When it is 15yrs old I will be 60 and DH heading 70 yrs old. I am doubting myself but I need to get myself fit and healthy and able for DH and the boys and the pup too. I cannot crumply up like an old person and not be able to walk can I??? SO it is more than important to get through this and get more weight off and use my muscles. I am sooo looking forward to having the baby. I really am . It is terrible to have a flare up of Fibro right now. Had to crawl on the floor to get up after checking the fire cause I simply cannot get up until I get to the couch to pull myself up with it! lol anyone would think I was 90yrs old. Had to walk with the stick this last while again!

Oes

 

[BusyBlonde]

oesdog, I know how you're feeling about the weight not coming off as quickly as you like, I share your struggle - but we have to understand it also didn't show up all at once, and it is healthier to take it off slowly. When you say you're not eating properly, I definitely agree based on your menus - I don't think you're eating enough, either. You need to nourish your body and will not lose weight properly if you don't. I say this after having tried to diet and really restrict my calories and carbs, it just didn't work for me. I have a lot more success, even though the weight comes off slowly, when I eat balanced meals and make sure I get plenty of veggies, some fresh fruit, protein and some dairy. When I fall off that way of eating and resort to mostly carbs I start gaining again. I know you have a lot going on in your life, but I hope you can make the time to take care of yourself, too!

I love the idea of you getting another OES. I have followed your posts, and greatly admire your strength and perseverance. I think a pup would be very good and soothing for you. My prayers are with you, your DH, and your family. I hope you're feeling better today.

 

[oesdog]

Thanks for the mail

I am very very sore indeed today and spent most of the night with the pillow wedged under my bad leg. It is very frustrating indeed as I so want to be up and doing things and excersizing and all the rest. I know I am not eating prooperly. Half the time it is because I am rushing about to hospitals and all sorts. Trying to "fit" the shopping in before folk arrive home and need caring for. I must admit I resigned myself to not having another OES but secretly I adore them and felt devistated when Murph went because I thought he would be my last. Once DH told me about the little guy I actually burst into tears. I know if things got too bad I can just put the two dogs on long leads on a spike in the ground on the beach and let them run wild without going too far! I guess one has to be adaptive and I do have a really good tred mill!!!

I would love to get the pup. I guess a lot of folk woulld think me totally barmy but I am over OES dogs it has been like having a trumatic amputation not having one attached to the end of a lead.!!!!

Oes.

 

[oesdog]

15th Nov
Day 15


Weight 9stone 13


Breakfast
1) cup of Coffee white no sugar.
Warm cereal

Exercise?
walk

Mid morning snack

2) Coffee white no sugar


Lunchtime
Bowl of homemade veg soup and
a wedge of wheaten bread to dip in it ( DH has been baking and making again!)
Glass of water.


Mid afternoon snack
none


Dinner
liver and bacon with Broccoli and mashed potato
Ice-cream
Fruit flavoured water.

3) coffee white no sugar.

Exercise
none

Supper
cup of Tea.
How I feel
Feel like I have eaten better today - DH cooked all day as I have been so sore. However he isn;t well either so he tells me I am back on duty tomorrow! Oh well good while it lasted!

 

[oesdog]

16th November
DAY 16

Weight 9.13 lbs



Breakfast
1) cup of Coffee white no sugar.
Warm cereal

Exercise?
walk

Mid morning snack

2) Coffee white no sugar


Lunchtime
Chicken wrap and a handful of fries.
Fruit juice


Mid afternoon snack
none


Dinner
Duck with stuffed Mushroom and hoi sauce.
Ice-cream
Wine of course its Friday! .

Exercise
none

Supper
3) coffee white no sugar.

How I feel
Still very frustrated at the rate of weight loss this time round, I feel fat and cold and unwell and sore all the time. Losing weight is easier when it is warm for sure. I am glad I am not gaining it that all. I mean I feel like diving into a hot bowl of stew or soup all the time just to get warm.

 

[bluesub]

Why are you back to coffee??? Where are your fruits and vegetables?

Hang in there. You are still maintaining your weight, it is going to be slower. You know, swimming in soup wouldn't cause you to gain weight... AND it would count as exercise.

 

[oesdog]

Sorry sorry sorry!!!!!!!!!

I am not feeling very well at all and I guess I am doing all the wrong things again.
Dh even made a cake today and gave me an enormous slice! I have had the most hum dinger of a bad head today and have been drinking Tea all day do No coffee!

Thanks for giving me a big kick!!

Oes

 

[bluesub]

Look back over these posts... you have been gradually increasing the coffee and decreasing the tea. Caffeine with no food (or just carbs) is bound to make you feel bad.

Good luck tomorrow on the tea! I'll be watching you!

 

[oesdog]

17th November
DAY 17


Weight 9stone 12 lbs



Breakfast
1) cup of Coffee white no sugar.
Yogurt with dates.

Exercise?
walk

Mid morning snack
Tea white no sugar


Lunchtime
Ham and cheese wrap
Big chunk of victoria sponge cake filled with strawberry jam and butter cream ( Yum! - DH forced me hes been baking Darn!

)
Fruit flavoured water

Mid afternoon snack
Tea white no sugar


Dinner
Salmon fillet with chilli sauce, boiled potato and mixed veg.
Glass white wine.

Exercise
none

Supper
Bread sticks and cheese dip with
a glass of wine infront of a movie. ( Ok I am bad! the cake forced me over the edge!

)

How I feel
Frustrated because I want to get the weight down but I also want to enjoy what I eat and drink without feeling guilty or worried about the scales the next day!
At least the wine helped me have a really good night sleep for a change! I have been a=ina great deal of pain with my bad leg that has not helped that much.
I think a deal of why I am feeling unwell is exhaustion and pain. Ok with a hint of coffee and bad diet thrown in! Hard to be culinary motivated when I am hobbling on a stick!

But I am getting a puppy and that will be counting for exercise????

 

[rockingbearanch]

I haven't read the whole thing but I noticed with what you ate a couple of times that I would have a headache too. I love chocolate and coffee. I snack baking chips all day, no or lower sugar, high quality organic. Craving cocoa, along with headaches, seems to occur when I have low magnesium. Cocoa is high in antioxidants. I think snacking those, but skipping all other sweets and treats might help with mood. I take a magnesium supplement with a fish oil tab and it does help but getting it from food is better.