Thank you for that. Yes to all. I'd just like to spend more time with them, maybe going for a nice walk or to a dog park without looking like the crazy lady who has no business having anxious and out of control dogs. I want to be able to walk my dog through a Target without attracting any attention other than good attention. Some day!I get that but 1) do you love your dogs 2) do you spend time with them 3) do they seem to enjoy their lives 4) is your life better for having them 5) proper vet care 6) are they loving towards you and yours.
I am pretty sure the answer to all of the above is yes SO don't be so hard on yourself. Dogs are adaptable and forgiving.