I Killed My Rooster Today, It Broke Me

[TheChickenMonk]

Today was a very grim day, I killed my Rooster who I had raised and showed pictures of here. I loved him so dearly, and this truly cut deep. My neighbors were calling in animal control on him, even with his collar, and no one was willing to home him or able. Animal control told me he would be euthanized and... I chose he deserved to die by the hand of someone who loved him and would care for him after. I haven't cried or screamed like that ever, even at the death of family members, I sounded like a wounded animal. He was my baby, and I... did that. A horrid mark of karma on me as a failed monk now. There was so much blood, and he... died in my arms after. I buried him, and gave him a cairn as none of my birds were ever meant to be eaten. I feel so numb now, but... A small gift came, this very same day as well my smallest hen Kos laid the first egg of my three hens, and with Paarl having likely mated them all I am hopeful that he will have sired some chicks. I will miss him dearly, and never forget him. I'm trying to keep strong, but I am struggling. Thank you for sharing. Here is an image of him in his honor, and the first egg today. Goodbye Paarl.

 

[Isadora]

Sorry you couldn't find him a new home. Despite how hard it was, please take a measure of comfort in knowing that you didn't let him suffer or pawn off responsibility on someone else. That means a lot.

 

[TheChickenMonk]

I am so sorry! I didn’t quite understand why he had to die?

He was going to be taken away at the end of the day by animal control and killed, and I had no one able to take him. Roosters are illegal in my town you see, and even with his crow collar he was to loud for my neighbors, who kept calling complains about him. So he was going to die at the end of the day no matter what, I chose to do it myself instead of an stranger.

 

[TheChickenMonk]

How did you euthanize? I’m very sorry for your loss he was a gorgeous rooster.

I used an axe. It was quick, but... messier then expected, but yeah.

 

[Lovely Lettie]

Today was a very grim day, I killed my Rooster who I had raised and showed pictures of here. I loved him so dearly, and this truly cut deep. My neighbors were calling in animal control on him, even with his collar, and no one was willing to home him or able. Animal control told me he would be euthanized and... I chose he deserved to die by the hand of someone who loved him and would care for him after. I haven't cried or screamed like that ever, even at the death of family members, I sounded like a wounded animal. He was my baby, and I... did that. A horrid mark of karma on me as a failed monk now. There was so much blood, and he... died in my arms after. I buried him, and gave him a cairn as none of my birds were ever meant to be eaten. I feel so numb now, but... A small gift came, this very same day as well my smallest hen Kos laid the first egg of my three hens, and with Paarl having likely mated them all I am hopeful that he will have sired some chicks. I will miss him dearly, and never forget him. I'm trying to keep strong, but I am struggling. Thank you for sharing. Here is an image of him in his honor, and the first egg today. Goodbye Paarl.

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Omg this made me cry sending you hugs and condolences

 

[tripletfeb]

Today was a very grim day, I killed my Rooster who I had raised and showed pictures of here. I loved him so dearly, and this truly cut deep. My neighbors were calling in animal control on him, even with his collar, and no one was willing to home him or able. Animal control told me he would be euthanized and... I chose he deserved to die by the hand of someone who loved him and would care for him after. I haven't cried or screamed like that ever, even at the death of family members, I sounded like a wounded animal. He was my baby, and I... did that. A horrid mark of karma on me as a failed monk now. There was so much blood, and he... died in my arms after. I buried him, and gave him a cairn as none of my birds were ever meant to be eaten. I feel so numb now, but... A small gift came, this very same day as well my smallest hen Kos laid the first egg of my three hens, and with Paarl having likely mated them all I am hopeful that he will have sired some chicks. I will miss him dearly, and never forget him. I'm trying to keep strong, but I am struggling. Thank you for sharing. Here is an image of him in his honor, and the first egg today. Goodbye Paarl.

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If he did sire some chicks and you hatch them, there are bound to be roosters in those. So have a plan before you need to cull them too. Don't do that to yourself again

 

[MarDar]

Today was a very grim day, I killed my Rooster who I had raised and showed pictures of here. I loved him so dearly, and this truly cut deep. My neighbors were calling in animal control on him, even with his collar, and no one was willing to home him or able. Animal control told me he would be euthanized and... I chose he deserved to die by the hand of someone who loved him and would care for him after. I haven't cried or screamed like that ever, even at the death of family members, I sounded like a wounded animal. He was my baby, and I... did that. A horrid mark of karma on me as a failed monk now. There was so much blood, and he... died in my arms after. I buried him, and gave him a cairn as none of my birds were ever meant to be eaten. I feel so numb now, but... A small gift came, this very same day as well my smallest hen Kos laid the first egg of my three hens, and with Paarl having likely mated them all I am hopeful that he will have sired some chicks. I will miss him dearly, and never forget him. I'm trying to keep strong, but I am struggling. Thank you for sharing. Here is an image of him in his honor, and the first egg today. Goodbye Paarl.

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He was a good looking rooster. I am very sorry for your sad experience. At least he met his end with someone who loved him

 

[RoyalChick]

Today was a very grim day, I killed my Rooster who I had raised and showed pictures of here. I loved him so dearly, and this truly cut deep. My neighbors were calling in animal control on him, even with his collar, and no one was willing to home him or able. Animal control told me he would be euthanized and... I chose he deserved to die by the hand of someone who loved him and would care for him after. I haven't cried or screamed like that ever, even at the death of family members, I sounded like a wounded animal. He was my baby, and I... did that. A horrid mark of karma on me as a failed monk now. There was so much blood, and he... died in my arms after. I buried him, and gave him a cairn as none of my birds were ever meant to be eaten. I feel so numb now, but... A small gift came, this very same day as well my smallest hen Kos laid the first egg of my three hens, and with Paarl having likely mated them all I am hopeful that he will have sired some chicks. I will miss him dearly, and never forget him. I'm trying to keep strong, but I am struggling. Thank you for sharing. Here is an image of him in his honor, and the first egg today. Goodbye Paarl.

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I am so sorry. He was a fine looking fella and is well honored with the cairn and maybe some babies to come.
Meanwhile, be kind to yourself, you cared for him well up to the end.

 

[TheChickenMonk]

My heart goes out to you. It's so sad. I'm sorry for your loss. Chickens bring so much pleasure but are truly not really considered pets by most. Our neighbors huge dog barks from 11p till 0700 and that's ok. But let your rooster crow ....
It's a heartbreaking and unfair situation.
You have my sincerest sympathy.

I definitely agree the bias against chickens is odd, certain countries views on what animals are pets and what are not are silly. All animals have the sentience and personality to be a pet given the time to learn it, and at the same time all animals have the compacity to be just meat. But we treat some as above, and others below. Thank you for your, and everyone's, kind words. I've had to cull one other chicken since than and it was still no easy task I've found on my heart.

 

[TheChickenMonk]

If he did sire some chicks and you hatch them, there are bound to be roosters in those. So have a plan before you need to cull them too. Don't do that to yourself again

I am going to be better prepared with finding them homes while they are chicks rather then having to scramble to find a home when they are full grown, as well I am moving in the summer to a place that can have roosters so I won't be as put in a dire situation like this. My big hope was to breed him with my Dominique and Silver Wynadotta to try and get a mix between them, so he actually did what I had hoped. Thank you for the words and I will take them with due seriousness, I intend to be better prepared so I don't have to do this again.