I read this thread shortly after you posted it, having been up all night with my injured dog anyway I just browsed the forums. In all these hours I honestly have not come up with a single thing I could think to say. I figured telling you that I couldn't think of anything to say was at least saying something. I think you are handling this as well as can be expected. I honestly just don't know what else to say that hasn't already been said. Just take care of yourself and know that if you need anything at all, all you have to do is ask and someone will help you. Your family is there with you.
My own dear husband's name is Bill. When I read the title for this is just about pierced my heart.
I cannot imagine surviving without my Bill so I can only imagine the pain and shock you are experiencing right now. Please try not to what if yourself into agony. It is only normal to wonder, but even if you had found him somehow whatever took him would likely have taken him anyway. When my own mother died as suddenly without anyone there for her I felt the same way, but as the years went by I realized that she went the way that was best for her although certainly not for me. She went quickly in the comfort of her own home. She dreaded a long ongoing disability and illness. I suspect your darling husband would have hated being a "burden", too. We would happily have them around to burden us, but they would have hated it.
I am so very sorry for your loss. None of us can understand or know exactly how you feel, but do know that we are here for you.
I'm so so very sorry. I cannot even imagine how you are feeling right now...
This is my nightmare..loosing my DH. I just cant imagine..
I'm just so very sorry for your loss..