I'm so sorry for your loss. It will get better. Grief is like ocean waves, it ebbs and flows. Sometimes you feel you are over something, then the wave of grief flows back over you. In time, though, the intensity will diminish. We lost a baby girl to preterm labor. A few months later, I saw a beautiful little girl at a restaurant and it just hit me so hard. It has been over 6 years now and I do not feel that intense sorrow anymore. Bless you. BTW, God gave us that sweet little stinker in my avatar pic about a year after we lost the girl. I pray He will do the same for you.