and i have to say; I'm a bit sad...
my 5 yr olds last day is today..we have her pre=k picnic on friday..but really today is it...
I have SUPER mixed emotions about this...i want my baby to stay my baby...
when ppl ask her if she's in school; she always said I'm in Pre-k and it always made my heart
leap...
now it'll be I'm in Kindergarten..ugh..she's my last one..I always wanted another one; but I had a
medical condition that needed treated and in doing so, I had to get my tubes tied for my safety and
if I had ever become pregnant for that babies safety..but it definitely was a procedure that
COULD have waited..it was NOT life threatening, just impacted life terribly..so now i'm feeling
that maybe I was selfish and was trying to make my own life better w/o thinking about a future childs life..
so now that my "baby" is done w/Pre-k after today..I am at a super loss for words today and a bag
of mixed emotions... of course SHE Is super excited..lol...
But I'm also thinking; she's so darn innocent and I dont want her to leave my side..I'm really
thinking about homeschooling these two girls; (1st grader and pre-k'er) ..but I'm doubting myself on it..
I know hubby will support me as I already HS the 7th grader...I think I better sit on that for a while instead
of making rash decisions..I'm emotional today..
So..I'm headin back to bed..til she gets home..that gives me 2 hrs; then I'll get up and shower, get ready to greet my
non-pre-k'er and love her to death...So, tell me..am I nuts??
my 5 yr olds last day is today..we have her pre=k picnic on friday..but really today is it...
I have SUPER mixed emotions about this...i want my baby to stay my baby...
when ppl ask her if she's in school; she always said I'm in Pre-k and it always made my heart
leap...
now it'll be I'm in Kindergarten..ugh..she's my last one..I always wanted another one; but I had a
medical condition that needed treated and in doing so, I had to get my tubes tied for my safety and
if I had ever become pregnant for that babies safety..but it definitely was a procedure that
COULD have waited..it was NOT life threatening, just impacted life terribly..so now i'm feeling
that maybe I was selfish and was trying to make my own life better w/o thinking about a future childs life..
so now that my "baby" is done w/Pre-k after today..I am at a super loss for words today and a bag
of mixed emotions... of course SHE Is super excited..lol...
But I'm also thinking; she's so darn innocent and I dont want her to leave my side..I'm really
thinking about homeschooling these two girls; (1st grader and pre-k'er) ..but I'm doubting myself on it..
I know hubby will support me as I already HS the 7th grader...I think I better sit on that for a while instead
of making rash decisions..I'm emotional today..
So..I'm headin back to bed..til she gets home..that gives me 2 hrs; then I'll get up and shower, get ready to greet my
non-pre-k'er and love her to death...So, tell me..am I nuts??