I can't beleive you do not kill and process your own turkeys, Ever? What about the 35 ducks, you were telling me about? and the rabbits, and Roosters? i have to admit that the first one, I ever did was a rooster and it took me a half hour after I tied his legs to a tree, before I got up the courage to cut it's throat, but a woman's got to do what a woman's got to do. My mother would have run from a rooster, and I had never even seen it before. Just keep telling yourself that you are doing it so your family can have a nice Thanksgiving dinner, and you are helping the turkey fulfill the reason God gave him to you. It will nourish your children and give them good nutritious meat, free from chemicals, drugs and death is part of living and that food is the reason these turkeys exist. You can do it, we all know you can and I bet your DH will be proud of you! You can do it ! YOU CAN DO IT!! YOU CAN DO IT ! YOU CAN DO IT ! Come on, Kuntrygirl, YOU CAN DO IT !! WE'RE cheering for you!