I will try. LOL
When we process all of the extras, someone else comes over and "does the deed". I don't do the deed. I can't. I have to go inside until the deed is done. Afterwards, they call me to go back outside to help with the plucking and skinning. The 1st ram that we took to the butcher, I cried in the butcher shop. My family ordered me to go back in the truck until I got it together. I still get teary eyed when we take a ram to the butcher but I'm getting better. I just think about all of that lamb meat in the freezer and I'm back to myself.
I think what makes me so scared is not doing it right the first time and seeing them suffer until I can get it right. I want a quick way that I can do it and know that it will be done right the first time. I need a sure thing method. Any suggestions? I don't think I can do the slitting the throat thing. That's too close and personal.
I'm no help for sure - and that's in spite of growing up helping to butcher hogs & calves every fall. I never "knew" them personally, though - & I never watched them being killed, so all I ever saw was the carcass strung up for processing.
I have "offed" several mean roosters - after they attacked me & drew blood, I got mad enough that I grabbed a sharp axe & marched them down to the bayou & whacked their heads off & pitched them into the water for "gator bait".
OK, so I finally processed
one last year- Jim grew up on a farm in Wisconsin & he walked me through the process - plucking & all that -- & I put it in a ziploc bag in the freezer.
And there it stayed - I could not bring myself to cook it! I finally got rid of it. I felt so guilty every time I opened the freezer door & saw it laying there...:/
Now I remember my Grandma going out & pointing out a chicken for me to catch when I was a little kid, & she would wring its' neck right then & there, pluck it & we'd have chicken & dumplings or fried chicken for dinner! - and I know she is frowning down on me for being such a wimp! -- so, I am determined that the next roos I hatch are going to be processed AND cooked & eaten.
Jim said his Dad used to say: ''I fed you, now it's your turn to feed me" - about the lambs & chickens he raised for them to eat. That's a good philosophy; I just have to hold fast to it!
Celie you have such a good, positive attitude! - you definitely have my vote for group motivator!