Sorry, missed this one before.
I just put her down now. But I feel absolutely awful. I should have done it Wednesday night right away. You guys were right.
I didn’t think she was suffering cause she was still able to move some and had spark and then of course I convinced myself maybe she was broody or something. God, I’m such an idiot.
The girls were relentlessly beating her up because she’s weak and I didn’t notice.
She managed to crawl her way down the ramp and halfway across the run earlier, evidently trying to get a drink, but my girls all ganged up on her and were pecking her.
Do they know???
Anyway, I got so mad at them and ran in screaming at them and chasing them off her and into the coop then held her while she drank. Then I let her outside and she drank a long while more out of a little clear stream the hose had produced. Must have been very thirsty. I feel so bad.
But she usually always spends a lot of time indoors anyways but still.
She got to eat some grass too so I like to think she had a nice last few moments.
I thought I would be crying tons but I’m really not and it’s weird.... I was just like so matter of fact about it? And even held her while she flapped. I hate it. I should be crying. Not having zero emotions when I off animals.
Maybe it will come later though. Hopefully. I cried some yesterday.
It’s already been a pretty rough day so far too and then to see her being beat up/ganged up on so viciously like that and then having to put her down.... it’s just a lot.
But yet I’m not crying. I hate it.
