Sorry, missed this one before.
I just put her down now. But I feel absolutely awful. I should have done it Wednesday night right away. You guys were right.
I didn’t think she was suffering cause she was still able to move some and had spark and then of course I convinced myself maybe she was broody or something. God, I’m such an idiot.
The girls were relentlessly beating her up because she’s weak and I didn’t notice.
She managed to crawl her way down the ramp and halfway across the run earlier, evidently trying to get a drink, but my girls all ganged up on her and were pecking her.
Do they know???
Anyway, I got so mad at them and ran in screaming at them and chasing them off her and into the coop then held her while she drank. Then I let her outside and she drank a long while more out of a little clear stream the hose had produced. Must have been very thirsty. I feel so bad.
But she usually always spends a lot of time indoors anyways but still.
She got to eat some grass too so I like to think she had a nice last few moments.
I thought I would be crying tons but I’m really not and it’s weird.... I was just like so matter of fact about it? And even held her while she flapped. I hate it. I should be crying. Not having zero emotions when I off animals.
Maybe it will come later though. Hopefully. I cried some yesterday.
It’s already been a pretty rough day so far too and then to see her being beat up/ganged up on so viciously like that and then having to put her down.... it’s just a lot.
But yet I’m not crying. I hate it.
Thank you!! I appreciate this.
It's normal. You knew what was coming this time so are processing it differently.
If she was immobile the few days at it sounds, then good bet the digestive system wasn't functioning normal so not surprising you would see unusual things. The liquid...yeah probably all the water she drank.
Thank you!! I appreciate this.
That makes sense. It’s just weird. It’s like I’m numb or something and I hate it.
And I didn’t think of that but that makes sense!! Maybe her crop wasn’t emptying properly or something?
Thank you! That’s good to know! It’s just weird because I don’t remember Red having that issue but I guess every bird is different. And thank you.
just put her down now. But I feel absolutely awful. I should have done it Wednesday night right away. You guys were right.
Don't worry
Thank you very muchplease don't blame yourself, i think i wouldn't be able to do it never: so i think you're brave.
You did the right thing, she suffered but it was a day of love. Some hours aren't so much.
It's normal that you aren't crying. It happened to me too. When one of my chickens died from a very long reproductive disease i cried only a little. Pain came a little by little, and i think it was because so it was more tolerable. you have all my closeness
