Okay,..I am only 38,not sure why or what is going on with me. I have lived here all my life pretty much. Moved here when I was a little girl. I have never really been anywhere, haven't had the time or money. I live close to my parents, always have tried to stay "close" to family,..a very dysfunctional family though. I have a wonderful husband, two great children, a nice home,...I know blah,blah,blah,....Oh and I have NO social life or job. I am a SAHM,...I know,lucky me. I have this problem that is nagging me to death literally,...IS THIS ALL THERE IS TO MY LIFE?????? I know I am lucky to have what I have, and yes I can get a job, get friends,....blah,blah,...but it is soooooooo maddening. For example,..I decided to call an old aquaintance last night to chat and catch up,....she talked the whole time and I never got a word in edge ways,....then just out of the blue after and hour of her running her lips,..she just cuts me off and says she has to go. What the $#() ??? How freaking rude! I am so tired of trying so hard with friends and family,..they just seem to think they can treat me however they like and guess what??,...I will still be around when they need me. My DH says I am in a rut,...no,..I think it is more like a big dark cave and I am at the end of my rope and my flashlight is beginning to flicker,.....I always had plans for myself,..places i wanted to see,..things i wanted to do,...then life happened. UUUHHHHHHH! I am so aggrivated and so mad at the universe for everything,..and yes there is much more to the story,..but I digress at this point. Am I expecting too much???? I have tried everything to keep me occupied,..hobby after hobby,...and before everyone starts saying you should consider yourself very lucky at what you do have because others don't have this, or whatever,...I know that. Half full,..not half empty.....I am so tired,.....anyone have any suggestions???? Besides getting medicated by a quack doctor??,.....or will this pass????Please tell me it will.