I am so sorry for your loss. She isn't in pain anymore, and you did get that chance to say your goodbyes. I think it would have been much harder on you, if you hadn't made it there in time. God gave you that time, no matter what got in your way, you made it there. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. When you are ready to go back threw her things, maybe since they don't fit you, you can make something out of it to keep with you. Such as a lap blanket out of her favorite things, or such. My father was a preacher and had ties thru out the yrs, I am going to make a pillow or a tree skirt out of them. That way I can see them, and they are still useful, and it is more like a comfort for me still. Just a thought though, dont' attempt anything like that till you are ready. If you ever need to chat send me a message or something, I know what loss is.