My sister died friday. I just need to talk

[gritsar]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

 

[sourland]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I think she got to do the "fun things." Just having all of the family together has to be as good as it gets.

 

[annie3001]

so sorry for your loss.

 

[bossynbella]

Yesterday we had the memorial for Diania. It was nice. Thank God for the Four Square Calvary church in Tipton, IA! They let us use the church for free, and even made us cookies, coffee and lemonaid. It was a wonderful thing for them to do. Our pastor, attends the church but has retired from being the pastor, but when he asked the pastor if it would be okay if we had the service there, the pastor didn't even hesitate.
Also yesterday morning our neighbor Pete knocked at our door to say he though that the missing dog was up under the bulldozer on the farm on the corner, ( no one lives there, they just keep cows up there) We went up and sure enough a very cold, scared and hungry Pee was happy to see me. It seems like maybe things are going to start getting better. I hope so anyway. Lately I have just been so angry. I find my self bothered by silly things that I usually don't even notice. I'm short of patience too. Hopefully this ends soon too. As it makes work much harder when u are wanting to yell at people to just hurry up, or wanting to tell them to just shut up when they are gong on and on about things you don't care about. Usually these things don't bother me, but lately they have.
Well anyway Im glad to have Pee back and I am glad yesterday is over, and I am hoping it doesn't snow as much as they say it will or that it comes later, because I have to work from 7-11 tonight, and I hate driving in bad weather.
thanks for listening
Melissa

 

[rodriguezpoultry]

Your story is identical to my own...my mom passed away from this cancer 3 years ago. She made it 2 months after the diagnosis. We didn't realize...there's simply not enough research in this type of cancer and I am still furious about it.

I am so sorry for your loss. I wish there was something that I could say to make this pain go away, but it will always be there in some part. I still feel as though my mom will call me and then I realize, it won't happen. The only way I can go on is to remember that I will see her again and that she is watching me.

If you want a song to cry to, please listen to "Sissy's Song" by Alan Jackson. It's a good one to just release your grief into.

 

[WriterofWords]

I just saw your thread

She had such a beautiful look on her face in sunshine; like she was looking at her next home already.

 

[BigSkyChickens]

I'm so sorry you lost your sister. Not sure if I read it correctly in your original post, but I thought it was very brave of you to tell her that it was OK to go.

I like Cetawin's perspective on you having "things/stuff" from your sister. Your feelings about the "stuff" will change over time, and that's OK.

Right now just be extra kind to your self. Know that even though you feel impatient or rushed, you will need to give yourself extra time for things.
After my mom passed, I seriously felt like my brain had cracked.

Your sister is very beautiful in that picture. It reminds me of dreams I have about my mom where she's looking so pretty.

Best wishes to you as you move forward.

 

[3goodeggs]

I am sorry for your loss.

I am glad you got to spend Thanksgiving together.

 

[chickeypoo]

i have to agree with it being the worst year of my life as well. i can't wait for this year to get over with.. i mean.. it can't be any worse next year can it? i, too, am short of patience and have been getting really angry.. really easily. I just blow up so fast. most times, i don't even feel guilty about it. I walk around in a daze almost. I still feel like my dad's here.. like he hasn't passed away. i just wish he'd call me and tell me he's around ya know?

i have been thinking about you.. i know how it can be. I am glad you found Pee. i also took my dad's dog in when he passed away. lately she's been a pain in the butt. ugh. anyway, still many hugs from me to you