That makes sense.Its hard to explain everything since my husband handled a lot of aftermath and investigation part. I have no idea how to load the video and I haven't even watched the whole thing only parts of it. But it was definitely this dog 100%

I've never experienced such a loss, and I don't hope to understand how you must be feeling.
But I did experience my first flock loss recently - a very, very special girl named Melody who I had raised from a baby. She had just turned 2 when she died. She was in perfect health her whole life, and I lost her in a matter of hours. I still don't know why. Members here wanted me to find out why she died. They wanted me to cut her body open, look at her insides, and see what happened...what took my sweet Mel away from me. And I should have; I know it. Maybe I would've found some closure. I should have done it.
But I didn't. Because the idea of cutting open the body of the hen who had existed alongside me for years and who brightened my day, every day.....the idea alone invoked pain and queasiness strong enough I wanted to throw up.
I'm not sure why I told that story. The pain I felt and still feel doesn't hold a candle to the loss you've had.
But I guess I understand people not telling you the things you expected or wanted to hear after you've experienced a loss. And I'm sorry for adding to that.