Ninja, so very sorry...your blog site was heartrending! I will be praying for you and wracking my brain to think of the possibilities.
I am praying that it is something that was just missed and will be easily corrected.
I will be praying for a diagnosis and a cure, or that you find the strength to cope and endure if the outcome is not favorable. Hugs to you!
A link you might want to explore to see if something rings a bell:
http://myweb.tiscali.co.uk/ataxia.pages/index.htm
A quote from the website:
Cerebellar Ataxia/Degeneration/Atrophy
The cerebellum has traditionally been thought primarily to coordinate movement (motor function and control, muscle tone, coordination and balance). However it is now recognised that certain diseases that cause ataxia/degeneration/atrophy (shrinkage) of the Cerebellum can also affect intellectual abilities and emotions. Memory, judgement, attention, language skills, emotions, anxiety and depression may be affected. Often a Neuro-Psychological Assessment may provide a valuable insight into any of these intellectual or memory problems.
"As well as the typical drunken movement/speech/coordination problems that are present in all SCA patients, I find that this disease has affected my mind in all of the ways mentioned above. My mental health (intellect) symptoms mainly involve random memory loss (mainly short term [but this does not always seem to be the case]), difficulty with emotions (especially depression/anxiety), panic attacks, difficulty in comprehending and following conversations (especially with recall), inability to make decisions, difficulty with explaining things."