So....talk about.....CANCER SUPPORT THREAD !!

[Outpost JWB]

@sumi. . Give me their names and numbers!! I'll get your answer!

 

[chicknmania]

That must be maddening.

 

[sumi]

@sumi .

. Give me their names and numbers!! I'll get your answer!

Don't dare me! lol

 

[sumi]

Got mail today but nothing from the hospital

7 weeks today, so they are a week late now.

 

[N F C]

Ugh, so sorry Sumi.

 

[LittleLakePhil]

Got mail today but nothing from the hospital   7 weeks today, so they are a week late now.

Dang it Sumi..... That is totally unacceptable. I understand your frustration though. Back in the day.... My bone marrow biopsies took forever and a day to get results back.
I'm still here though checking in with you guys......

 

[sumi]

I got a call from the hospital, they're after my second surgery "reports" from back in January. I told the lady I spoke to I'M after my results from the last biopsy! She couldn't tell me anything, unfortunately. It's SO frustrating. Hopefully they'll get a move on now and let me know soon...

 

[Mamachic1967]

Hello Sumi, Thank you for the info and for asking about the bne marrow results. Today was actually the day my husband and I met again with my Oncologist to discuss the bone marrow results. I went in feeling great thinking this is all a big mistake. Then the nurse printed out my CT Scan done 4 weeks ago and wouldn't explain what it said, she wanted to let the doctor explain it. The doctor came and my nurse and he asked me how the night sweats were I told him my clothes get drenched at night and asked about pain which has increased for me since some lymph nodes are growing. Then he got right to it. I broke down after he said the bone marrow biopsy shows that it's in my bones and marrow, possibly in my lungs. Now I am Stage 4 when originally I was Stage 1. I was kinda hopeful since it was at such an early stage, now not so hopeful now. I was very angry, tired and numb. I've been told over and over It's Stage 1, it's treatable, it's a slow growing cancer. Bull! My first lymph node appeared the end of August and in 1 week I had at least a dozen more. Now it appears I'm full of them. I don't believe it. I see the bumps and I know I'm sore but I feel fine; I refuse to change my lifestyle and slow down and rest because then that is all I will think about. I told my husband I want us to still live our regular lives, just carry on because I don't want to come to terms with being sick and having family worry for me and be scared because I am and the only way I can cope with this is to believe I'm ok. I don't know what else to do, I don't want to think about it or even talk about it anymore. I start Chemo on Monday for 2 days. Then once a month for 6 months. For some reason my Oncologist wants to still treat it as Stage 1, I don't know why? Also if Chemo doesn't help and the lymph nodes around my lungs have remained then he will do a lung biopsy. So it's not as simple or easy as they make it sound. I am not one to 'live for today' I've lived my life planning ahead, looking ahead, so now I feel lost and angry. I couldn't even be truthful with my father or son tonight when I called them both. I can't hurt them anymore than what I've done already. This is HARD! I feel like I'm in a bad nightmare and can't wake up.

 

[Mamachic1967]

Thank you it's nice to read someone else's words that I am thinking. Today was round 2 of bad news for me I don't think I can handle hearing much more. I hate my body so much for failing me time and again. If I had a blow up doll of myself I would take out my anger on my other self. I am defective for life. I'm already talking about making plans to get a will done. I hate cancer and there is nothing in this world that will ever help me understand it or why it chose me. So I will keep on keeping on until I no longer can.

 

[Mamachic1967]

It's been a rough day and I told myself I wasn't going to come on BYC and cry my heart out in frustration and anger but I did and I don't feel any better. I found out today I am not Stage 1 but I am Stage 4, in my bone marrow and possibly in my lungs. Instead of better news, hopeful news I get worse news. I think I will take some time to try and absorb what's happening and chack in again when I'm feeling better. Than you Phil and Sumi and Oldhenlikesdogs; your posts helped me feel more welcome and less alone. I just need time to wake up from this nightmare I'm in. Thank you all.