Southern NY, Dutchess county and below

[smkchick]

I need to vent also.

I'm really down today. Had to skip the mortgage payment last month and it doesn't look good for this month either. I put money aside for 3 classes I need to get my HS English certification, which I need to work in my friend's treatment center (which is a year away from opening). In the meantime, they are talking about reopening a school the district closed, which may or may mean a job for me by maybe or maybe not September. I don't know whether to take the classes or pay the bills. Or to count on a job with the district or not.

I snapped at Bobby today (he can be such an immature pain in the a** sometimes) and then he didn't speak to me for hours. I didn't speak to him either. Like I need to deal with the shiRt too right now.

I am constantly reminded how demoralizing this whole situation is. I went from being a well-paid, respected professional to not being able to pay my bills or even go to the doctor. It has affected my self-esteem in all areas of my life. I have a constant, nagging sense of dread, no schedule (don't know what day it is half the time) and feel guilty for every penny I spend. (Not that I didn't buy Christmas presents.) My relationship is in turmoil and I don't even know what to pray for.

I just keep coming back to "Give me the strength to get through this..."

Thanks for letting me share. Keep a good thought.

 

[stoopid]

Let me know if you need help. I'm here for you

 

[Carolyn252]

I need to vent also.

I'm really down today. Had to skip the mortgage payment last month and it doesn't look good for this month either. I put money aside for 3 classes I need to get my HS English certification, which I need to work in my friend's treatment center (which is a year away from opening). In the meantime, they are talking about reopening a school the district closed, which may or may mean a job for me by maybe or maybe not September. I don't know whether to take the classes or pay the bills. Or to count on a job with the district or not.

I snapped at Bobby today (he can be such an immature pain in the a** sometimes) and then he didn't speak to me for hours. I didn't speak to him either. Like I need to deal with the shiRt too right now.

I am constantly reminded how demoralizing this whole situation is. I went from being a well-paid, respected professional to not being able to pay my bills or even go to the doctor. It has affected my self-esteem in all areas of my life. I have a constant, nagging sense of dread, no schedule (don't know what day it is half the time) and feel guilty for every penny I spend. (Not that I didn't buy Christmas presents.) My relationship is in turmoil and I don't even know what to pray for.

I just keep coming back to "Give me the strength to get through this..."

Thanks for letting me share. Keep a good thought.

I sent you a pm a few hours ago.
-Carolyn

 

[Cheeky Chick]

I need to vent also.

I'm really down today. Had to skip the mortgage payment last month and it doesn't look good for this month either. I put money aside for 3 classes I need to get my HS English certification, which I need to work in my friend's treatment center (which is a year away from opening). In the meantime, they are talking about reopening a school the district closed, which may or may mean a job for me by maybe or maybe not September. I don't know whether to take the classes or pay the bills. Or to count on a job with the district or not.

I snapped at Bobby today (he can be such an immature pain in the a** sometimes) and then he didn't speak to me for hours. I didn't speak to him either. Like I need to deal with the shiRt too right now.

I am constantly reminded how demoralizing this whole situation is. I went from being a well-paid, respected professional to not being able to pay my bills or even go to the doctor. It has affected my self-esteem in all areas of my life. I have a constant, nagging sense of dread, no schedule (don't know what day it is half the time) and feel guilty for every penny I spend. (Not that I didn't buy Christmas presents.) My relationship is in turmoil and I don't even know what to pray for.

I just keep coming back to "Give me the strength to get through this..."

Thanks for letting me share. Keep a good thought.

Oh Suzanne, I will pray for you. Finances these days are getting scarier and scarier I think for us all. I pray that there's some kind of relief on the horizon, because right now all I see is dark at the end of the tunnel myself. Pay the bills-banks forgive much less than schools do with tuition.

Quote:

Let me know if you need help. I'm here for you

Ditto. If there is anything I can do for you, please don't hesitate.

 

[smkchick]

Thanks for the kind words, ladies. I guess the real frustration for me is that I would not have lost my job if I was bilingual. I was with the district 8 years, had tenure and seniority, but because they instituted a dual language program (designed to teach the white kids Spanish, not the Hispanic kids English), only non-bilingual teachers were let go when the budget was slashed. I think I could deal with the financial situation better if it weren't for the injustice of how I lost my job to begin with.

I love tutoring, but right now I'm not making enough to pay the bills. I think I have no choice but to put the classes on hold until I see what will develop with the district. I need to keep the lights on and a roof over our heads.

 

[Cheeky Chick]

Thanks for the kind words, ladies. I guess the real frustration for me is that I would not have lost my job if I was bilingual. I was with the district 8 years, had tenure and seniority, but because they instituted a dual language program (designed to teach the white kids Spanish, not the Hispanic kids English), only non-bilingual teachers were let go when the budget was slashed. I think I could deal with the financial situation better if it weren't for the injustice of how I lost my job to begin with.

I love tutoring, but right now I'm not making enough to pay the bills. I think I have no choice but to put the classes on hold until I see what will develop with the district. I need to keep the lights on and a roof over our heads.

That's still astounds me. This nation has become a caterer to everyone BUT citizens. My dad came here from Poland/Germany...literally kissed the ground, took the job they gave him, and learned English. He taught me Polish songs, some german songs, but never spoke the language. He became an American. I'm so sorry this happened to you. It is very unfair. VERY.

 

[magsrags]

Suzanne I totally get how you are feeling. Your not alone and $$ is so tight here I steal from Peter to Pay Paul every month. Who ever squeaks the loudest or threatens the worst gets a piece of the pie. It's a heavy weight waking up every morning wondering when the change might come and we'll be back on an up-ward swing. I hate when the mail comes each day. And my husband has a good job but we can't seem to keep inflation costs....bridge tolls....gas.... and food prices from just slashing into the budget. I am dropping my RX plan because we need the $325.00 per month payment we make for bills instead.

So hang in there............you surely are not alone and it isn't because your not trying., It is a scary and uncertain world we live in right now.

I wonder......if I built a small web site with sale items would you like to place your hand made crochet items on it? I'd do all the picture uploading etc. You just would have to provide your contact info/pricing for your own items.
I've done this in the past with good success.

I have been meaning to get one up. I already have a domain or 2 to choose from waiting. I need a push to get it rolling.

One is KeepSakeBlues.com
http://www.keepsakeblues.com/



I have my Magsrags.com domion for about 13 years now.
http://www.magsrags.com/




as well as BabyBoomerBlues.com

 

[Glasshen]

Suzanne, I sympathize completely, the district did you no favors. I wonder if it would be good to take one of those courses, and perhaps talk to the financial aid people. It seems like there could be some money out there for qualified people who are just trying to change direction a little due to the times. I think that having the extra certification would be very valuable, and it feels better to be moving toward a solution than stuck with nothing in your control. Are you in a position to redo your mortgage? We hope to do that since the rates are lower now...I hate to see you give up a good possible plan. And the extra certification area makes you very much more likely to find a spot. Don't forget about the other districts. What about subbing? That probably pays pretty well on LI. It also helps you network, people get to know you and pull for you.

 

[Cheeky Chick]

Suzanne I totally get how you are feeling. Your not alone and $$ is so tight here I steal from Peter to Pay Paul every month. Who ever squeaks the loudest or threatens the worst gets a piece of the pie. It's a heavy weight waking up every morning wondering when the change might come and we'll be back on an up-ward swing. I hate when the mail comes each day. And my husband has a good job but we can't seem to keep inflation costs....bridge tolls....gas.... and food prices from just slashing into the budget. I am dropping my RX plan because we need the $325.00 per month payment we make for bills instead.

So hang in there............you surely are not alone and it isn't because your not trying., It is a scary and uncertain world we live in right now.

I wonder......if I built a small web site with sale items would you like to place your hand made crochet items on it? I'd do all the picture uploading etc. You just would have to provide your contact info/pricing for your own items.
I've done this in the past with good success.

I have been meaning to get one up. I already have a domain or 2 to choose from waiting. I need a push to get it rolling.

One is KeepSakeBlues.com
http://www.keepsakeblues.com/



I have my Magsrags.com domion for about 13 years now.
http://www.magsrags.com/




as well as BabyBoomerBlues.com

Wow, Maggie, thats' a really good idea! I love the home page design of Keepsake blues. Reminds me of my old comfy blue jeans. (You know, the ones I wish still fit! LOL)


325 a month in Rx coverage? Holy moley! Hopefully things won't get much worse before they get better, but some days, when I get the mail, I wish I could just run away to the woods and hide from the bills.

What's really killing me is this whole "Cyber monday" garbage. I guess if you're buying a 5k tv and saving 1k, you're getting a deal, but saving 2 dollars on something that's 50.00 isn't going to save me. My kids made their lists yesterday. I didn't even see that black hole coming! Whatever happened to giving fruit and handmade items?

 

[smkchick]

Whatever happened to giving fruit and handmade items?

Everybody's getting eggs this year!

I got up and out by 9:30 to finish raking the yard. We're a good team. All finished by 11:30. Of course, I don't have the strength to lift a cup of coffee, but it feels good to see all those bags piled at the curb. I wanted to finish today because it's supposed to rain tomorrow.

We're going to do the branches and mowing as soon as weather permits. Need lots of firewood. The oil company isn't complaining loud enough!