I definitely know what your feeling Jeremy. The very first time I got any of quality, I got hit hard on day one. But, like me, I am sure Joy or Julie will step up and ease your pain and set you up, IF not with another comparable cockerel, maybe some eggs. I am sure it will never replace ED, but may ease the pain of his rapid departure. I wish I had what you like or I'd take care of you. But I do not. Just be patient and you will be back with your flock in high gear real soon. Good luck.