Well, we thought my husband was safe from deployment, as he is halfway through his Officer school. He was on the waitlist for the upcoming March class, but apparently got bumped and put in the July class... and since that's so far away, they have decided to just sent him to afghanistan for a YEAR... with 20 days notice.... and yes, he'll spend 2 months training in a US state first, but i won't be able to see him... and my 3 kids (6, 4 and 3) are just beside themselves. Plus, I am a little bit anxious in general, being the only adult in my rural house in the dark makes me paranoid and scared. last time he was gone for a long time, I spent an inordinate amount of time sitting in the dark on my stairs with my pistol... just waiting. Every little noise woke me up if I managed to get to sleep, but mostly I couldn't sleep... So, I don't want to tell anyone that he's leaving, the idea of every townie and country idiot knowing that I am home alone with my 3 kids for a whole YEAR makes me want to vomit... (not that every person is an idiot, i just worry about the idiots knowing)... SO I'm telling you all, since I'm pretty sure most of you are not crazy homicidal maniacs... and I need to tell SOMEONE... I told my family, but asked them not to tell anyone else... so anyway, he's leaving on January 7th (we're pretty sure.. could be the 8th), and I am trying really hard to not be a total wreck... anyway, thanks for reading.
