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This sounds so familiar, Tessie. I'm bipolar. I didn't get a diagnosis till I was in my 40's although I knew something wasn't right way back in my teens. Battled that suicide thing even way back then. Finally got some help then, in my 40's. Took about two years to find the right meds. I'm in my 60's now and stable. These last 20 years have been the best years of my life. Not the easiest, but the best, because I finally feel I have control over ME. Some of those years have been a chaotic mess, lol, but I no longer feel I am losing my mind, and that's worth something! Get help whenever and however you can, Kiddo. It's worth it. YOU'RE worth it!
😢 this gives me so much hope. I feel so relieved to be in good company.
I was on an antidepressant for a brain injury when I was a teenager and it was a horrible experience.
I'm terrified of side effects or being "not myself" but this month was a wake up call. It's better than dying. I would give anything to feel like I'm in control.
 
😢 this gives me so much hope. I feel so relieved to be in good company.
I was on an antidepressant for a brain injury when I was a teenager and it was a horrible experience.
I'm terrified of side effects or being "not myself" but this month was a wake up call. It's better than dying. I would give anything to feel like I'm in control.
I was terrified of potential side effects.
I worried for nothing Tes.
There is a magic pill with a big fat T on it just for you.
I know it.
 
True!! I finally had a talk with my dad last month and said I wanted to see one and asked him to call for me and he did the next day (it was pretty late at night at the time lol). So glad. Online friends are great, you guys are all crazy supportive, just look at this thread, but having someone real, physically there, holding you accountable is definitely very helpful and important.

You get that if you're lucky. When I was a teen and tried to ask my mom for help, she got all tight-lipped and indignant and said, "Don't be ridiculous. We don't have those kinds of problems in OUR family, and I don't ever want to hear you talk like that again." As I got older I realized alcohol and denial were her drugs of choice. It never occurred to her that she needed help, too.
 
😢 this gives me so much hope. I feel so relieved to be in good company.
I was on an antidepressant for a brain injury when I was a teenager and it was a horrible experience.
I'm terrified of side effects or being "not myself" but this month was a wake up call. It's better than dying. I would give anything to feel like I'm in control.

There are lots of options. If one Rx doesn't work for you, or you don't like the side effects, tell your dr.! There are others they can try! Man, I must have tried 15 different drugs or drug combos before we hit the one I've been on since 2000. Some people can't take it but for me it is a miracle. No weight gain, no mood swings, no appetite suppressant. It just stabilizes my mood. No more roller-coaster! No more pits of despair or terrifying mania! Keep trying, SOMETHING will work!
 
I'm back to normal ish for me.
I wonder why it changed so much.
I'm going to bed for real this time.
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You get that if you're lucky. When I was a teen and tried to ask my mom for help, she got all tight-lipped and indignant and said, "Don't be ridiculous. We don't have those kinds of problems in OUR family, and I don't ever want to hear you talk like that again." As I got older I realized alcohol and denial were her drugs of choice. It never occurred to her that she needed help, too.
This has been another of my greatest fears. My parents have always been very anti-drug and anti-medical treatment in general.
This month when a lot of crap hit the fan my dad gave me a hug and told me to seek help, whether it be a pill or anything. It felt like a mountain was lifted off my shoulders to hear that. Part of me still feels like it's "wrong" or "giving up" somehow, but I know that's not true.
 

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