Well, idk if it’s exactly years, but I’m pretty sure it has been haha cause even the ones we had to read for school I never finished most of them

read just enough so I could talk and write about it and/or read summaries. And I start a lot of books but never actually finish them. Usually put them down and forget about it or start another one or both. And currently I don’t even think I’ve picked up one in who knows how long.
I used to LOVE reading as kid and read tons but then I got addicted to the internet/phone.
Now when I try it’s either boring and/or I get distracted and do something else OR I actually try and read for a few hours but don’t get very far cause I suck at reading now so then I get frustrated and quit.
I want to read but now with the combination of the OCD being worse and me not having read in a while, I always get like “stuck” on specific words or sentences and have to reread them and keep rereading them. :/ usually it’s just the OCD but sometimes it’s also cause my brain refuses to actually read and process it. Either way, gets suuuuupeerrrrrrr frustrating when it takes me forever to read one tiny section so I usually just quit and give up. That’s also part of why I stopped finishing school books. Even when I locked my phone away and actually tried really hard to read it, it would take me hours and I’d still only be a few pages into the book or stuck on one tiny paragraph or page or whatever and I would get so frustrated and/or feel stupid if it was a textbook my brain was refusing to process so I’d just give up and quit and stopped even trying to read altogether. Didn’t really see the point if it would take me forever anyway. And then I’d get behind on the reading but I didn’t bother to catch up, knew I would never be able to anyway, or I would try but I would want to read what I missed first instead of the current reading, which was probably stupid but hate reading out of order, so then I’d just get more behind.
Anyway, I’m sure if I actually read more, I would get better and faster at it but it’s just not even relaxing or fun for me anymore when I get so frustrated at myself and everything.
We have pretty large libraries here I think but tbh I practically have a library in my closet
I have so many I acquire meaning to read and never do.
I do want to start reading again though, I definitely do, so I think I’m going to start trying again. It’s fun when I can actually manage to read and get into then book haha I think it also depends on the book too because some I can’t put down and try to work through the getting stuck thing or just seem to get stuck less but others I can’t really. Idk. Anyway, I do want to try.
I mean, I obviously spend way too much time on my phone, which is definitely a big part of why I don’t read much now, but it’s also because I get so frustrated so I just don’t even bother now.
But that’s stupid.
I definitely want to try to again haha