Oh, Liz, I didn't know this - I am so sorry you had to experience that loss and go through the grieving process for a partner. The death of my sister in 2009 really affected me more than I expected. "More than I expected" - what a stupid statement, but it's true. Another puzzling effect is how each loss since then brings up those feelings. Yup - a chicken dying pushes me right back into the sadness. If I still had my sister, I wouldn't have the house and property I purchased with her death benefits. I bought my very first 8 chicks during the month she died - when i was renting - and we were talking about my new endeavor, which she thought was going to be great for me. I still want to call her up and tell her about everything, how her sort of namesake chick developed into my dominant rooster and what a great fellow he has become, how wonderful it's been to be able to buy my little homestead.... Oh, wait, I couldn't have done it if she hadn't died.
Sorry for rambling. You are in my heart today.
Yeah I couldn't even talk about it or him for a long time, too painful. Life just keeps right on going whether you want it to or not. Then it's the regrets, etc etc. But thank you for thinking of me today.
