Thanks all of y'all. I really don't mean to drag myself or anyone down. Guess I'm just in a lot of physical and mental pain right now. Tody is just one of those days. I told my grandmother two days before she died that I could tell that she wasn't feeling good. She had gone through the same surgery years before I had mine for this sever spinal stenosis. She looked at me and said, do I look like I feel bad. We were the only ones in the room at the time. She then told me that she tries not to show it and she thought that she hid it well. She did hid it well. She knew that the only reason that I knew was because I was in the same boat as far as the back problems go. My aunt talked to me about this later and said that my grandmother and her talked about my disabilities. She was laying dying and worrying about my handicaps. (I'm an emotional wreck right now. Sorry ) Right now I hurt from missing her and and physical pain. What is wrong with me. I was brought up on my dad's side (his mother) where men don't cry or show their emotions. I just don't know what's going on.
Anyway camping I would do the crochet thing but twist would pick on me lol. Thanks for all of y'all listening to my emotional crazy self. I'll be better. I just get tired of hurting I guess. And I hate depending on others to do things for me . Cp is bothering me today on top of everything else.
I'm missing hatching at the moment 
That's good you can drees and eat your boys, all mine have been too small with the being polish. Not a good meat bird at all.
