Okay Thank you thank you!
A lot of you have said that I can communicate with Josh over internet, I have Myspace, Yahoo, and MSN!! I have a mic hooked to the computer but we have no webcam, I will have to see about going and buying one. When Josh use to live with his parents before we got married we talked a lot on MSN and he always had an avitar of a skull and cross bones on one side it says "mess with the best" on the other said it says "die like the rest" thats starting to worry me now because of how Josh is one of the front men.
I don't know how else to keep busy, I have a job as a writer for the local paper but that job ends at noon everyday. Since I got pregnant Josh hasn't wanted me to clean or cook my own meals. He asked his best friend and my best friend to do it for me, Trisha and Kirt are a cute pair!!!
I am trying to stay strong, I haven't heard anything from Josh and I don't want to try and contact him because it will make him think that something is wrong and like most of you have said it will make him worry and not focus so I will not be trying to contact him I will wait till he contacts me. I am one of those girls who are quiet even when there is something wrong and I don't want Josh to hear the worry in my voice.