Really, y DH gets the same way a lot. I am very happy, with what he provides. (I amd a SAHM) We pay all our bills, dont really have much leftover, bu twe have what is important to us.
We have boxes of food and water in the basement, chickens and rabbits and a garden outside. I feel SAFE, because I know I have what I need to survive.
How many of those people with fancy houses and stuff can say they feel safe, even in there regular lives, let alone in a depression? They are always afraid of LOSING because life is a compitition. Whoever dies richest wins.
Not saying you should have the same goals I do, but you should figure out who you are, and then realize that being who you are is something most of them dont have.
OK, this is all kindof random and disorganized, but I hope it somehow helps.