I'm glad someone understands. I was beginning to think I was weird.X3. You don't get any Brownie points in this life for pain. As for myself, I have zero pain tolerence. If faced with a terminal illness and unending pain, the only thing I would want is OUT and I hope those who love me would help me find a way if I couldn't do it myself. Contrary to what some people seem to think, death is not the worst thing that can happen. Not even close.