Cari,
 
Maybe I need to have a "come to Jesus" chat with your boyfriend.
 
Perhaps I feel a connection with you because I have your eggs in my bator right now, BUT...
 
... I guess the questions I want to ask you are too personal to do except in a PM.... and I won't ask them unless invited to do so.
 
I love every single one of my kids.  I can't imagine what life would be without them.
 
Marriage and kids are a part of what makes life worth living for me.  It's a part of God's plan of happiness for most all of his children.  My wife was 27 and I was 29 when we got married... and we have 7 kids.  It hasn't always been a bed of roses. I've yet to see a real marriage that is.  It is WORK! It is constant kindness and looking out for the needs of your partner.  It's caring for what they care about. It's about total, life-long/eternal commitment.
 
My maternal grandparents were married over 70 years.  My parents over 65.  My wife's parents have been married for 55 years now.  None of my siblings or my wife's siblings have been divorced.  I just can't see it ever happening.
 
Perhaps it's time to tell boyfriend to "poop or get off of the pot"!!