Zoloft, and I def need it. My dr diagnosed me with pmdd after I told him about the RAGE. Without it I just rip and tear, bellow and holler, throw and punch... General unpleasantness. I can feel myself spiraling but if I can't get away fast enough, then RAGE. The meds keep it tamped down so I can have long enough to think about my actions and respond appropriately.
Yikes! Never heard of that and had to look it up. Yeah, rage is probably not going to help anything. I've just met so many people in my life who feel bad if they get angry over an unfair situation, and they suppress it or choke it off. I think anger can be used to channel a person's energies into making constructive changes. Rage would be destructive. You are right about meds for brain things. I have a sister in law with paranoid schizophrenia. Some family members don't "believe" in mental illness and think she is acting that way on purpose. Who would do that?
It's the worst feeling. Like watching myself out of body. I can recognize myself making bad, hurtful decisions but I feel powerless to stop it. It's such an out of control feeling and that's what puts me in bed. If I'm under the covers, I can't lose control.