I would be terrfied. I dont normally mind blood and my hands are really steady but operating on your own chick with just a youtube video.
I have no anethestic or equipment. Dont know who would unless you are a vet
Yeah, I understand. I am the same way... My theory is: I rather not see the blood, I rather it stay in my body where it belongs.

You will need a vet for this situation then, do you have a dog or cat? Ask that vet. I don't know of many etc. any chicken vets... You can look though.